"This is one of the worst days of my life"

The morning was awful.  It was mentally and emotionally exhausting what we went through.  I wanted to cry because I was so mad and upset at the same time, but I couldn't do that because I somehow knew that it would make the kids think they somehow had power over me.

We arrived to the foundation and were preparing for our English class.  We didn't do much because we had to wait for Anita and Melisa to finish their homework first.  In the meantime I shared cereal with all the kids that Adriana had given me to take to them.  They were all happy and very thankful.  Some had trouble sharing, and that's when it all went down.  When I went up to ask Carmen for some worksheets, she was telling the kids they needed to share.  She then looked at me and said that what she was about to tell me was supposed to have been said the day before, but there was no time.

In summary, I was told I wasn't supposed to have favorites and that if I'm going to buy something for someone I have to buy for all of them.  Obviously I was getting scolded for buying bread for a few kids when they went with me to the store.  She said this and a bit more to make it a point that what I did was horrible.  I was not surprised by her action, but I was upset by it.  Sure, maybe what I did was wrong, but that's not the way she should have told me so.  I just stayed quiet and in my first chance I asked her for the worksheets.  I could care less about what she thought really, but what happened next is what really got me.

When I went to ask the boys what they were coloring, Henry looked up at me and made a face as if he was ashamed by my actions.  I saw and heard Joan whisper to him, barely looking at me from the corner of his eyes, not to talk to me.  They were giving me the silent treatment.  My heart sank.  The kids were now against me.  This was coming from Daniel and Joan who we rewarded for behaving well, and Henry who I talked to about his interest in art.  I stepped out to see if Yonseili was coming back from the store to share this with her.  You see, she went out to get some cokes for a birthday party upstairs.  Anyway, when I saw her I just told her it was one of the worst days of my life and how I overheard the kids say they wanted us to leave.  I was so hurt to see that kids could have such feelings.

During English class, the kids were quiet.

We left knowing we wanted to stop volunteering for a place we had not many good things to say about.  Not just because of today's event... but many other little things that made this the breaking point.

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We went to CCI to buy Harry Potter movie tickets for the night then we went home for lunch.  I took a nap and when Yonseili got out of class she gave me a call so that I could meet her in front of Pinto at Quicentro.  I called a cab and went over.

The taxi ride was the cliche annoying ride.  The driver asked me where I was from and bla bla bla.  He talked about how I was the first Mexican he drove around and how his friend was in Mexico D.F. and bla bla bla.  Then he gave me his cell number so that I could call him when I was leaving the country so he could take me to the airport... then he ripped me off.  What-ever.  I would have argued but I was by myself.

I saw Yonseili with Julius in front of Pinto.  They bumped into each other there and they were waiting for me.  We went up to the food court, had coffee and chocolate, and chit-chat for a while before we had to leave to CCI for the movie.  It was good catching up with the dude, with someone familiar.

Highlight of the day: The movie was great.  I enjoyed hanging out with Yonseili AWAY from our computers.  We also enjoyed our nachos with jalapenos.  Good stuff.